| long update haha |
[Mar. 7th, 2007|12:30 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| [ | Feeling |
| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | Iron and Wine | ] |
Well, Mike's been gone for a week now. It's so odd, probably close to 90% of my free time was spent in his company. Kind of feeling alone, but I guess that's to be expected. I'm not used to falling asleep alone, or not having someone to hug me =( But, I think it's going to go over much better than when he was in Iceland, kind of know what to expect, and what not to. I guess we're kind of on a break technically, free to do what we want. This might have potential to be fun, but at the moment I'm not really looking or trying for anything. We'll get back together when he returns anyways, for damn sure hehe It's been like 3 years now, that's retarded!! Ah and I want to go to Momoyo (sushi place on Barrington) and get Sushi Set B, brown rice tea, and a side of spicy avacado maki... That's my and Mike's order, we get it everytime... Anyone want to go out for sushi someday? I think there's other stuff on the menu without the fish in it...
My dreads are starting to act up all weird =/ They're locking up in places (desired result) but not in all. Some places are just getting all loose and loopy and messy. So much of the roots are falling out, which might make them thin and eventually break off. If even one breaks off I'm taking them all out right away. I recombed maybe 3 ends or so, and I'll see if they take better this time around before recombing any others. Every time you recomb you loose more broken hairs. . This = BAD
Pam is coming up for March Break next week, and will probably be staying with me from Wed-Sun. Hopefully we can throw a party at SMU for her or something? Tania? haha I'm going to try and make her come out for sushi with me, but I don't think she'll eat any.
And on Saturday there's a party at TJ's because he is now done school! YAY for him haha But this also makes me think of what I need to start looking into for next year. I know I want to major in History, and hopefully get some classics courses in too. I failed psychology, and have to take another 1st year science. Pain in my ass for sure. Maybe I'lll book an academic adviser meeting sometime and they'll tell me how to do what I want.
My last bit of info is that I've probably decided where I'm living next year xD TJ, Hadley and I are getting a 3 bedroom in Fairview, at Stoneybrook Apts. I'll have my own room and full bathroom to myself. haha they're considerate enough to let me not deal with a guy's bathroom grossness. When Mike's back he might move in too, but I'm used to dealing with his mess lol The place also has a SWIMMING POOL! and saunas, and a tennis court, and security guards. and I can smoke inside, even if there is a balcony. ooh and they'll let us have a cat. I hope/think TJ is keeping Loki? I love that crazy stupid thing hehe Incase I didn't drive everyone else crazy in person, I'm really excited to move into a non residence anywheres! Man, I hate residence. I want to go out and buy curtains or something lol
Now I don't feel like typing anymore, so I'll leave you with a song. It's probably sappy or bittersweet or whatever.. but <3
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[Jan. 17th, 2007|09:50 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my res room | ] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | fairly obvious | ] |
the song that has been playing in my head 24/7
it makes me think... |
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[Oct. 13th, 2006|09:03 am] |
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Jenn is happy =) |
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[Oct. 1st, 2006|12:00 am] |
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just updating, sitting in brook/hadleys apartment floor in the living room, on coadys sweet frikking macbook, on qireless internet. its such a cool laptop.... |
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[Sep. 21st, 2006|09:35 am] |
maybe later on today ill update about how things are... but for now, everyone fill this out about me ^^
I _____ Jenn.
Jenn is _____.
Jenn needs _____.
I want to _____ Jenn.
Jenn can ______.
Someday Jenn will _______.
Jenn reminds me of _______.
Without Jenn _________.
Jenn can be _______.
Jenn is always _______.
The worst thing about Jenn is ________.
The best thing about Jenn is ________.
I think Jenn should _________.
If Jenn was an animal, she'd be a(n) ______.
Jenn probably tastes like ________.
If I could spend the day with Jenn, I'd ____________.
I'd ______ for Jenn.
Jenn is made of _________.
Jenn is the _________.
If I could be Jenn for a day, I'd ______.
I want to give Jenn ________.
The song _____ by _____ reminds me of Jenn.
Jenn really has to stop ______. |
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| my summer update |
[Aug. 21st, 2006|09:48 pm] |
well, im bored so ill update until im bored of updating....
-i got my tattoo, and i absolutely love it. a cute little star behind me ear =)
-i have most of the shit i need for university, but i wish id find out who my room mate was, after all i am going to be in close quarters witht hem for almost a year =/
-theres a dance friday that i wish to go to... anyone else on lj thats planning on going too?? tania you better go or ill kick you haha
-had my cabin party!!! i had lots of fun, smoked a shitload of weed and tried 'bucket tokes, a la craig" very fun... but everyone kind of went to sleep early and nothing of an overly interesting nature happened. chad is fucking hellarious though, great well shots of him. my cousins didnt get to go though, which made me sad. maybe next year though eh?
-put in hay for two days straight, and then worked at vis for two days, and i have to tomorrow as well. im so tired and sore.
-ive been out almost every night for the past 3 weeks, and high everyday except maybe 2 or 3? probably two, which includes today. last night we went to mikes after brooks going-away-party-for-coady/jenny, and walked down a dirt road by the woods/shore and sat in a ga-zee-bow (sounding it out here obviously) and smoked hooka and pot. it was loverly, and i dont think ive been that ridiculously high in such a long time. we mixed 3 different types of weed, so i blame/credit that. it was amazing.
-yup, getting bored. tania are you still alive? leave me a comment or soemthing. we should hang out sometime soon |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2006|11:25 am] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | the blowers daughter -damien rice | ] |
i havent updated this in while, but i guess not much has gone on with me lately. i graduated (didnt make the honor roll) had my prom and went to a bunch of parties. the best one was where we went to hadleys gravel pit and smoked a big joint and sat around and watched and played with the fire. i think for the next little while ill just stay at home and be quiet.
but on... wednesday im getting my wisdom teeth out, and im slightly conceerned ill lose some of my piercings, like my tongue or lip... ive also never removed the jewelry from my daith, conch or tragus... so that might be a hassle.
im going to work most / all of july, and probably take a lot of august off. im kind of mad at my boss because she said the only vaction im getting i already had, which was not working during my grad week... umm... i was busy graduating! helloooo.... ah well she can deal with it, i dont liek the feeling that she thinks she owns me. maybe im going to bit too strong here, but she is convinced that i already had my vaction for the entire summer.
and things with mike are just like they always are. i always want to talk to him, but when i do it makes me really sad and then i regret it. it seems like such a jke that were still together. and only until september when we planned on breaking up anyways. like why the hell are we together for the 3 or so months he was gone (and just constantly fighting) and then be together for a month when hes home, and then break up when we actually have a chance to see each other, ill be living in halifax near him. fuck i hate relationships. youre supposed to be with someone that you can love and trust and that makes you happy. and here i am with mike. yes i do love him but i no longer know why, all it does is bring me heartache and make me feel shitty about myself. like hes not happy with being with me anymore, why? what did i do... i dont think ive changed much, and he says he hasnt at all. well that the hell happened to us then? we were so good together and now fucking look at us, all i do is cry and be sad and hope for something better when he gets back. its so pathetic... and im NOT looking for pity here. im just pouring out my feelings like i always do on lj.
yeah so thats all thats new with me. ill probably update later and let everyone know how the teeth removal went lol |
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[Jun. 17th, 2006|10:08 pm] |
i dont know if anyone else will find this amusing... but i did. (yes, i read celebrity gossip, its addicting lol)
you kind of have to read the article before understanding the comment i guess...
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/7224542.html
and here is someones response to it... lol
Jean-Claude Rouzaud, who managed the Louis Roederer winery until his retirement earlier this year, once said: “We make our champagne for that 3-5% of consumers who really know wine, and who take the time to taste it correctly.”
The reality is rather different, at least in the United States. Today, the most high-profile consumers of Cristal are rap artists, whose taste for swigging bubbly in clubs is less a sign of a refined palate than a passion for a “bling-bling” lifestyle that includes ten-carat diamond studs, chunky gold jewellery, pimped up Caddies and sensuous women. In his number one hit “Hard Knock Life”, Jay-Z raps, “Let’s sip the Cris and get pissy-pissy”. Cristal has been so visible at Mr Combs’s concerts that onlookers have wondered whether the venerable champagne house was sponsoring the event.
I don't find it racist. The fact that most rappers are black is circumstantial. Its just that champagne being seen on music videos poured down some girl's ass by some guy in a full fur coat and bling on his neck while people have sex in a room made of pure gold and those that serve the champagne wear diamond bikinis (I'm exaggerating this, but you get the point) is just not classy, which is why Cristal et all are a bit hesitant to be associated with that. Look at the quoted Jay-Z lyric that I bolded, there are more someone on the previous post on this.
And before anyone calls me anti hip-hop, I'm not. Its just how the industry is like these days. And if anyone calls me racist, and says that "Brands like, say Louis Vuitton are cheapened by people like Lindsay Lohan, or Paris Hilton..why don't you call on them?" et all, then give me a picture of Lohan peeing on her bag, and Kate Moss snorting cocaine from her Chanel bag, then we'll talk.
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[May. 30th, 2006|05:21 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | far away | ] |
i keep wishing hed say these things to me... but im just kidding myself, he never will
*might write more later, need to figure stuff out*
NICKELBACK LYRICS
"Far Away"
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go |
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[Apr. 16th, 2006|05:02 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | incubus | ] |
kind of late to post this, but this song reminds me of bonfires in the summer... and just the whole melancholy feelings ive been having.
Wish You Were Here - Incubus
I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like
A thousand diamonds strewn
Across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend I am weightless
And in this moment
I am happy happy
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles
A backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'm counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment
I am happy happy
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
The world's a rollercoaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
My hands are busy in the air
Saying... |
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[Apr. 9th, 2006|10:15 am] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | none | ] |
I won't get to see Mike again until the summer =(
I'm just glad I got to spend so much time with him before he left, but I'm still going to miss him like crazy. What am I to do?? |
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[Mar. 20th, 2006|05:59 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | lady sovereign | ] |
Guess who's going to Dal next year!?
Me so happy!! |
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[Mar. 8th, 2006|06:49 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | hungry | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | crystal method | ] |
the plan is as follows:
-work friday and saturday
-hopefully get sunday off work and catch a ride up to Halifax with Chris
-hang out with my sweetie all week
-hopefully meet up with Chad and Ashley up there
-get another star tattoo, or a piercing
-hang out with pam for a bit
-come home saturday or sunday
that is all! |
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[Mar. 5th, 2006|09:53 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | drained | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | limp bizkit | ] |
yes I still listen to Limp Bizkit,
kiss my ass if you dont like that ^^
Build a Bridge by Limp Bizkit
Build a bridge to your mind
Takes me there everytime
Lay it all on the line
If there's a way
Build a bridge, make a path
Overlook the aftermath
Make my tears be your bath
If there's a way
Only if you'll take a ride
Go with me to the other side
[chorus]
Even though it's gonna crumble down
I'll keep building till you come around
Even though it's gonna fall apart, break my heart
I'll keep building 'till i die
Build a bridge of memories
Stretch it out overseas
To the end of the world
If there's a way
Build a bridge made of pain
Send my longing down the drain
Have no reasons to complain
If there's a way
Only if you'll take a ride
Go with me to the other side |
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| Quotes |
[Mar. 1st, 2006|10:51 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | sickly | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | Strange Days -Mathew Good | ] |
Well, it's portfolio time, and I have 3 or 4 things left of Chapter One, due Friday (which is already an extension because I was out sick)
Anyways, I just finished my quote section and thought I'd share it, because I took a lot of
time to find ones I really liked.
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Tattooing is about personalizing the body, making it a true home and fit temple
for the spirit that dwells inside it... Tattooing therefore, is a way of keeping
the spiritual and material needs of my body in balance.
-Michelle Delio
To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything
in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall
on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
Madonna
Perhaps the feelings that we experience when we are in love represent a
normal state. Being in love shows a person who he should be.
Anton Chekhov
You must be the change you want to see in the world.
Mahatma Gandhi
Victory attained by violence is tantamount to a defeat, for it is momentary.
Mahatma Gandhi
Death is more universal than life; everyone dies but not everyone lives.
A. Sachs
Humans pretend they're a lot more useful then they actually are.
Mike Bennett
In the sky, there is no distinction of east and west; people create
distinctions out of their own minds and then believe them to be true.
Buddha
That which the dream shows is the shadow of such wisdom as exists in man, even
if during his waking state he may know nothing about it.... We do not know it
because we are fooling away our time with outward and perishing things, and
are asleep in regard to that which is real within ourself.
Paracelsus
The tattoo attracts and also repels precisely because it is different.
Margo DeMello |
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[Feb. 25th, 2006|09:45 am] |
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is it just me, or has no one updated in a very long time? |
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| monday and tuesday |
[Feb. 8th, 2006|08:34 am] |
hey everyone, im going to try and summarize what weve done so far.
monday we got up early, ate breakfast and then headed to the parilment building. while we were there, we got to sit in the senate, and i was able to sit in the very center of the room, right infront of our guest speaker. we saw a lot of cool stuff, including the painting of queen victoria.
we also ahd another speaker, i cant remember his name but hes 75, and really eccentric. ill look it up later...
after we left the senate, we walked around outside and took soem pictures, i got to see terry foxs eternal flame, and the war memorial. the tomb of the unknown solider is infront of that, and i was really happy i got to see it. i took a bunch of pictures to show my grandfather. later that evening we played some icebreaker games, which was kind of silly but ah well.
on tuesday, we signed up for cultural events. and we had a discusion on bilingulism. in the afternoon, we headed downtowen ottawa on a bus tour, and we got to see a lot of cool sites. well most people probably wouldnt find them cool, but i did. we got to see a bunch of embassies, and the governer gernerals house. she also drove by our bus in a big black car, with flags and everything. we saw a fwe musuems, and outside one of them was a huge statue of a spider. the tour guide said it was one fo 6 in the world, and they are placed at special places all over, theres one in toyoko, one in spain, and so on... i took lots of pictures, so yay! we played a tournement of blue vs green in the evening, and my team won! me and this girl named jenn h. pretty much singlehandley won one of the events, which was a tower building contest, our tower went right up to the ceiling lol
and ive gtg again, but ill write more about today this evening |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2006|08:17 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | Benny Benassi | ] |
I remembered how much I like foggy weather. It reminds me of when I was young and my cousins came home for the summer; I'd get up early to help my parents milk the cows and Bryan would come over too. We'd be sent down to herd the cows in the early morning fog. I was really scared everytime, but I loved it.
Anyways, enough remininsing. I'm off th Halifax sometime tomorrow afternoon. I get to see my Mike ^^ I also get to have a special birthday cake, and share with a bunch of friends. Hehe I'll update sometime and let people know how that went. I think Hadley, Charlie and Ben are going up too, so that should be fun.
And on Sunday morning, around 7:45 my plane is taking off to Ottawa! I'll end up turnign 18 over there, all by my lonesome, but it shouldn't be so bad. I'm planning on getting a new tattoo or new piercing too, but I don't want to let on details until I know for sure what Im getting. Mike knows what I mean. But anyways, I hope everyone will miss my charming presense next week at school <3
Oh, and here's a great list Bill just sent me, everyone would do well to follow it carefully!
( It should say Jenn... ) |
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[Feb. 1st, 2006|10:31 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | lovey dovey | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | Jim Croce | ] |
Time In a Bottle
Jim Croce
( Pessimists Beware ) |
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| my typing sucks when im emotional |
[Jan. 17th, 2006|09:24 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  irritated | ] |
| [ | Listening To |
| | entwined by lacuna coil | ] |
i finally got my computer back, the hard drive failed on it about a week ago. all my music and texts are gone =( including all the old msn convo ones i had from when me and mike first started going out... i really wanted to keep them. and all my pictures are lost, all my grad pic day ones, the beach party ones, the ones from that halifax weekend, any and all of me and mike together.... im really really upset about this. some of those pictures are all i have =( when the computer guy said today he didnt get them for me, i just aboiut started bawling my eyes out.... yes i am emotional, and i dont fuckign care. they meant a lot to me. i feel like crying just typing this out.
and im also becoming increasingly annoyed with people, im at the point where i just want to leave. or become a recluse and never speak to anyone except for mike again.
except i cant talk to mike because hes leaving for iceland next month, and i dont feel comfortable sharing how i feel with anyone except for him. i know for sure he wont judge me, and that he actually cares about what i have to say. even if he doesnt always say the right things to make it better, i know hes there for me. its going to be a rough... what 5 months? for me. if everyone notices my mood deteriorating over that time its because the only person i feel safe with is gone =(
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oh if you read this bill, im sorry to hear about your bad time, and the warning you got... hopefully nothing will become of it. |
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